Finally, I got a reason to update again.
I want to update this just in case there is anyone who about to lose hope like I was.
You know what? 2017 only has 2 months left and believe me when I said this year is so tough - it WAS so tough.
The first half was full of dream, while the second half was like living in a hell of hopes. What do I mean by that?
Well, I was one of 2016 SPM candidates. So basically I was supposed to be in college already this year. But that's not it.
Permohonan SA di UPU untuk sesi 1 tak berjaya. Then SA buat rayuan and tak berjaya jugak. So SA teruskan dgn part time job SA. First SA memang dah lose hope dah and fikir, "Aku mintak je lah tahun depan punya pulak. Lambat pun tak apa la".
Actually permohonan universiti ni ada sesi 2 (second/third intake) punya which masuk bulan november/disember tapi tak semua universiti ada (UiTM, UIA, UPSI, Poli, etc) and permohonan kena buat online kat laman web universiti tu terus, bukan melalui UPU dah. Tarikh bukak permohonan tu lain2 tarikh so korang kena alert and rajin search hari2 tarikh dia. It's around July/August/Sept. Tapi korang kena sacrifice duit sikit la kalau nak mintak banyak2 universiti because No PIN semua kena beli asing. For me, SA just mohon UiTM ja. Sebab malas nak berjudi (read: pertaruhkan duit) banyak2.
Tipu lah kalau SA kata SA tak jealous tengok kawan2 SA semua dah sambung belajar and dah dapat kawan baru apa semua while I'm still mereput kat rumah.
Yes, memang mula2 SA kata SA malas nak mohon sesi 2 punya ni sebab SA fikir nak sambung kerja ja and kumpul duit untuk study tahun depan. But parents SA force jugak suruh mohon. So I did. And alhamdulillah, I got it this time.
If you read my prev post, you would know how much I want to pursue in TESL ever since form 5 because that's the only option I ever have. I really wanna do Arts but unfortunately my parents are not that please with it. I'm not a good student but I have good grades in language subjects (malay, english, arabic). I also learn mandarin and korean by myself. So that's why SA terfikir nak sambung TESL and jadi translator or subtitlist.
But then sekarang, even it was second intake, I got to do want I really want - I got to pursue Fine Arts in UiTM. Well my parents cant argue since it's better getting an offer than not at all. So now diorang redho je SA study apa.
And that's how I thought, Allah nak tunjuk something sebenarnya kat SA. Allah nak SA tanya diri SA balik, "betul ke aku nak ambik TESL ni?", "mana pergi semua passion kau dekat arts ever since 11 dulu tu?". And yeah. I believe He really did.
If I could do what I want, so are you.
So never lose faith in Him. Just don't.